Paradise

What a beautiful dream
The stars were shining bright in the sky
Two hours before midnight
The lovebirds met
Sang the song of their hearts delight
Flew up and touched the sky
They came back to the ground
Lay down awhile
Cinderella time, it's goodbye
Days will soon go by
Time again for paradise

--etras.r--

The long and winding road

Everytime I hear this song I can't help but sing with the Beatles. I've experienced being alone for so many times. It's painful. But everytime there is a chance for a communication, I can't help but step in. On and off. Happiness and pain. But at the end of everything, I will be left alone.....on the same road.....waiting and wanting to be with him again.

This one is for the only BOGUS in my life!!! To the one who flies and to the one who loves Maverick.

The long and winding road
That leads to your door
Will never disappear
Ive seen that road before
It always leads me here
Lead me to you door

The wild and windy night
That the rain washed away
Has left a pool of tears
Crying for the day
Why leave me standing here
Let me know the way

Many times Ive been alone
And many times Ive cried
Any way youll never know
The many ways Ive tried
But still they lead me back
To the long winding road
You left me standing here
A long long time ago

Dont leave me waiting here
Lead me to your door
But still they lead me back
To the long winding road
You left me standing here
A long long time ago
Dont leave me waiting here
Lead me to your door

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Performance Level

Last Nov. 23, we had a concert in DLSZ. It was sooooo fun. I am very sure the viewers enjoyed a lot coz they saw their mentors groovin' on stage.hehehehe

Take a look at the pics.

The Iskul Bukol and the Wanna Be Dancers!

L to R(Czar, Sheryll, Shiela, Vicky and Kyra)

The Retro Fever

Gimme That Copa Baby!

The show must go on no matter if the zipper was down already. I can still remember how Sir Mon reacted when I told him, "Oh my God Sir, the zipper went down. Back is bare now." Bahala na si Batman, o si Superman, o si Lastikman. Let's samba. Hahahaha

Say cheese!!!!

Ms Gina and I made some poses. Reason? Well, this is the least thing I can do after coming to work late due to MMDA and LTO vehicle check/operation in Molino. Grrrrr!!!! My first time to be late this year.

The love of my life

I am blessed with two angels whom I considered the source of my strength. During my lonely moments or whenever I feel down, all I need to do is to look at them. I'll be strong again.

My eldest is Izel. She's 11 years old already. She's so kikay. When she's a baby she's so fat. But now, she's slim. Very conscious about her looks. She loves to dance and sketch. When people ask her from whom she got her looks, she will tell....kay Mommy. You have to agree or else she'll get mad at you. She likes Jolly cheezy fries and chicken joy.

My son's name is John. He's 10 years old. He is very playful, hyper to that effect. He loves computer games and basketball. He has a good singing voice. He loves to eat. He loves Jolly hotdog, pork sinigang, hamburger. He's hardheaded sometimes. Maybe coz he is still young. But whenever he embraces me, I can't help but give in.

SIMPLIFIED

Sometimes it's nice to see our faces on the monitor. Just take a look. You are not allowed to utter anything. Yeah...for your eyes only....

My friend May gave me 6 running poses during our dance practice break last Saturday. Location:CPA Theater, De La Salle Zobel

The text says it all.

SIMPLIFIED

8 out of 10 people like to keep things simplified.

I am one of them.

Sisters Forever

SUNNYLANE- We have no resemblance. I don't know why. Len is a patient woman, masipag, and I think she's into clean and healthy lifestyle. If I will be rich someday, I'll give her something for a living.Big grocery store. I will never forget what we shared in Makati. She helped me get my diploma in college.

KAYE-My intelligent twin sister.But I think I'm a bit prettier.hahahaha. Kaye knows my heart. She knows almost everything about me whether good or bad. She understands me. I simply love Kaye coz she does my obligations to our family in Batangas. How can I repay you sistah?! Kaye is mataray but that's purely her facade. She is very generous esp to our family. I do hope she'll have a happy family life in the future with Angel....unlike me huhuhu. I'll give you the gift that I have promised in your wedding. I swear!

ALLEN-I simply love Allen coz she is fun to be with. Grabe ang daldal. No dull moments. She stayed with me for 2 years in our house aside from Kaye. I will not also forget the sacrifices that she had done for me and my kids. Allen has the super speed ability to do all tasks on time. Strong ang bruha talaga. She loves our mother so much that's what I notice with her. You will see her cry when there is a problem in the family. Angal baka. One more thing, she's witty. Dapat manahin yan ni Jaren.hehehe

ZSAZSA-Actually, her name is Sunshine. Now everyone calls her Zsa, Shak, Mama ZsaZsa. ZsaZsa has a resemblance with Len. Pretty also. It must be her hair that says it all. Wavy...just like mine hehehe. Zsa is kind and she serves everyone in the family, from the oldest to the youngest. Wawa man. Hahaha Panget_baby forever ang drama niyan.

CLINETTE-The family fondly calls her Coly, Colinette...and I think she likes them. Coly is the youngest sister. She is adventurous. Motorbiking is her game. Kaskasera. She's the bunso and I think she does not like to be noticed all the time...especially now. She's a very young mom to Chloe. My sister and I have the same in common....we are impulsive but brave. She followed my steps. She married at a young age. I just hope she'll be tough till the end just like me. I will always extend help to Clinette no matter what. I will never forget her role in giving me the person that I still ___ till now.

I feel so light

I had a drinking session with my neighbors last Saturday night. Reason? It's Beth's birthday. Actually I joined them not because I feel so happy about my neighbor's birthday but because I feel bad about being so alone in life now and I feel bad about Sarte. I have so many thoughts in mind that I could not share to some friends coz they won't understand me. Or maybe I don't share these thoughts coz I don't trust them.

I don't have drinking session for so many days until last Saturday. Tinablan agad ako. Yeah tipsy that's it. Friends teased me the next morning coz I keep on repeating one statement...."I feel so light." hehehehe kakahiya.

Daing ng Puso

May mga tao talaga na iba ang sinasabi kaysa ginagawa. Bakit kaya ganoon?

Natural lamang sa isang tao na ipakita o ipagmalaki ang mga ginawang sa palagay niya ay magaling siya o nakakaangat sa iba. Meron din namang ipinagmamalaki kung ano ang meron siya o ang mga bagay na kayang gawin lalo na kung susukatin nito ang pagkalalaki ng isang tao.
Mahalaga sa tao ang pakiramdam na siya ay magaling. Ngunit, paano na kung ang mga sinabi ng isang tao ay naging walang saysay dahil hindi niya ito napatunayan o napanindigan?

Sa aking palagay siya ay isang walang kwentang tao. Hindi siya dapat binibigyan ng paggalang at panahon. Kahit isang segundo ay di dapat ibinibigay sa kanya dahil pag-aaksaya lamang ito ng oras.

Patuloy na iinog ang mundo, patuloy na tatakbo ang oras, at kailangang pagpapakatatag ang pananggalang dito. May mga mahiwagang oras na magdadaop ang landas dahil iisa ang ginagalawan. Nakakayanig man ang mga sulyap at titig, kailangang higpitan ang kapit sa mas natatanging pagmamahal sa mga taong umaasa, kailangang magsakripisyo at tiisin ang dumadagundong na pagmamahal na nanggagaling sa kaibuturan ng puso. Kailangang magpakatatag at hintayin ang tamang oras sapagkat siya ay hindi karapatdapat.

My Simple Prayer

This is my prayer before I sleep.

Dear God, thank you for everything. Thank you because another day shall end again...and we (Ize, John , and I) are still alive. Thanks for the blessings. Pls forgive me for my sins and extend more patience with me. Pls send your angels to protect us from harm as we sleep. Take good care of the people I love. Pls wake me up early at 5am.Amen.

I don't like long prayers. I want a simple one that comes straight from my heart.

Erlinda:The General in Villa Ilaya

General.Commander. These are usually the fancy terms which my relatives and family members call my mother. Grabe naman kase ang Inay minsan. Ang tapang. She's like a general with machine gun.

But my Inay is one in a million.

Inay will celebrate her birthday tomorrow. Happy 62nd bday Mommy!

Oh yeah! I sent cash as birthday gift(via LBC) yesterday. I do hope she'll feel my love kahit i'm quite far from her.

Inay you will always be here in my heart. You'll always be my source of strength now that I'm struggling so hard in facing my obligations to your two grandchildren. I do remember your hardships esp when I was studying in college. I acknowledge your sacrifices in order to give me a better life. You still love me despite of my failure in helping my siblings build a better future.

Everytime I feel so down I think of you. I think of our precious moments. I think of how you took care of me when I was young. I think of your courage and strength in facing life's challenges. And maybe...those are the things that I got from you. I face problems squarely just like you. Hmmmm there's one thing that I did not get from you....di ako nagger hehehe

At this point, I wanna say "thank you" for all the love that you gave me. May you have many birthdays to come. May you always feel that I am here for you. Your Michelle will always do her best to give only happiness. Your Michelle Inay will not share or give you burden to the best of her ability.....because this is the only way I could show my love for you.

I don't want to miss a thing

This song is Aerosmith's original but after many years Regine Velasquez revived it. It's slow rock during Aerosmith's time but it became a true mellow song with Regine.

This is one of the songs that I like. I can relate with the lyrics so much. When I am in-love, I really don't want to miss a thing about the person. Every move, every stare, every word is worth remembering....

Sing with me.....

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you
is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you
in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you,
just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

What's with being alone?

When a person is not in the state of being alone, probably that person will say time management is the name of the game. It's hard when you are in the real action of being alone.

Ize and John are with me. I have to take care of them, support them, give them all the love that I could give. Oh, they are my kids.

This is my usual sched now that I'm a solo flight.

I have to wake up at 4:45 am. I need to prepare everything that the kids will use in school. Mainit na tubig must be ready, breakfast, baon, uniform, etc. Grabe ito. They should be out at 5:40 am if they don't want to be late in school. They go with their Daddy.

After that, I'll give myself 30 minutes to clean the house. I consider it as my early exercise. Everything must be done .....fast or else I will be late for work. When 6:30 am comes, I have to take a bath fast. 10 to 15 minutes only. I have to dress up fast too so I won't be late in the van's 2nd or 3rd trip to Alabang. The service in Alabang leaves at EXACTLY 7:15 am. When it's traffic i usually end up commuting to the work place in a jeepney with some friends who also arrived late in the service waiting area. Too bad.Too costly. Bad trip ito.

I have to be with the studs at 7:50 am until 8:15 am for the morning routine. At this point, my stomach is already in need of food. I eat my bfast in the lounge for 20 minutes, chat with some friends there also. After that, I need to focus on my programs and I need to attend my classes for the day. At 4:30 pm, I go home.

I usually arrive home around 5:30 to 6:00pm. I will rest for a while coz it's really so hard to walk from the kanto to my house. Sometimes I eat merienda, sometimes I don't. It depends on my mood. I exercise for 30 minutes. I do some nice and hard steps (street dance kuno) to make myself okay. Hahahaha aminin. Okay, I want to have a shaper body that's why I dance a lot now.

I cook dinner of course. It's more expensive when I buy food outside. I watch the news after cooking or as I wait for the kids to come home at around 7:00 to 7:30pm. We eat together. I always ask them impt things about school. Martyr na Mommy hehehe. The kids sleep at 9pm.

When the kids are already sleeping, it's already my emote period. I can't help but think many darn things about being alone. Sana my kasama ako nanunuod ng TV or makausap man lang. Sana may nalalambingan ako. I even text or call my siblings when I get so lonely and I almost want to cry. So hard. I close my eyes at 11pm.. sleep when the angel pities me already and send me to rest at 11:30pm.

There......what can you say?

These are the good things of being alone.

1. I manage my life alone. I can do all the things that I like to do. I decide alone. I am responsible for my actions.
2. My earnings are really for me only...ooopps also for the kids. I can shop anytime. I can buy whatever I like...no one will stop me.
3. I learn to do things fast. I value my time. I learn that time management is impt.
4. I learn to save. Nobody will help me when it's time to pay some bills.
5. I learn to love myself. Nobody will take care of me. I have to take care of myself.
6. I learn men stuff. Mag ayos ba ng kanal , gripo, outlet. Kulang na lang umakyat sa bubong eh. Grrrrr
7. I learn to be imaginative.

And... these are the bad things of being alone.
1. I sometimes feel every part of my body aches coz of over fatigue. More work and less rest.
2. I get freak easily.
3. Mapapanisan ka ng laway. I have no choice but to value my saliva. Talk to the walls girl.
4. I long for tender loving care hahahaha.
5. Men think I'm a good target coz I need a little tender loving care. GRRRR I dunno. Getting paranoid huh girl.
6. I mind my own problems. No help whatsoever from other people.

It's 50/50. Sometimes I feel contented of being alone (when I am busy). But at night............ don't ask me anymore....it's too dramatic.

Haikkkkkkk Haiku

This is one thing that I've done good for myself. I've sent two entries for the Haiku Contest.Hehehhe Wish me luck.

The theme is about nature. It can be appreciation or care for nature. So here are my entries....

Pinoy Haiku entry

Asul na karagatan
Puno ng yaman
Mga isda ay natahan

English Haiku entry

Blue mountain so high
Ground is free from slash and burn
Trees live and birds fly

I dunno but I think I have a talent in poetry coz I really find making such stuff easy.

Maybe I am a very distant relative of Francisco Balagtas hehehehe

Summertime Hiatus

At this point I am thinking about productive things that I can do this summer. I like to go to some tourists attractions. I like to have a driving lesson. I like to start a small business. I like to plan the movies that I'll watch. Hmmmm....too many things to do...too little time.

Life changes...life must go on

Maverick/Tom Cruise communicated with me last month. He even called me and we talked about many things. Now he's gone again. I mean, what's wrong with him? I'm getting nuts!

My youngest sister will get married this April 22. Too bad coz she is still very young. She is only 19. Goodness! She did not learn a lesson from me. I am really wishing her.....good luck. May she be able to do her duties as a wife and may she finish her studies in the future.

My brother does not like to be left behind by younger siblings. Our family asked the hand of her girlfriend for marriage. Oh my gosh! The marriage is set next year. Anyway, he is at the right age already. It's just that, my other siblings find their future sister-in-law too shy ! Hehehe

And......WTX is on his graceful EXIT. So embarrassing on his part.

Estranghero

by Gabriela Blanca (shiepel)

(Ito ay tulang sagot sa Manhid ni Andres Rizal)

Ako ay naaliw nang aking mabasa
Ang iyong tulang laan para sa kanya
Nais ko sana, ito ay iyong makita
Upang makamit na, pag-ibig sa sinisinta

Hindi ba tayo ay nasa makabago na
Mabilis, di mabagal, ang uso sa tuwina
Huwag ka nang ligaw tingin
Marapat ay ipabatid ang damdamin

Gumawa ng paraan, sa kanya ay lumapit
Maaari mo namang sabihing siya ay marikit
Ano pa ang iyong hinihintay?
Baka ikaw ay maunahan, saka malulumbay

Huwag mo sanang isipin na siya ay manhid
Baka hinihintay lamang pag-ibig mo ay ipabatid
Wala namang mawawala kung iyong sasambitin
Iyong pagmamahal na matagal nang kinikimkim

Malapit mo nang marinig
Bulong ng pag-ibig
Lakas ng loob ang kailangan
Huwag maging estranghero sa minamahal

Sailing

by shiepel

I am sailing in the middle of the sea.
The wind is strong.
The sea is deep.
Waves are high.

My boat is floating.
Struggling but floating
Against the wind and waves
I am sailing.

Directions are unclear.
North? South? East? West?
My heart beats fast.
The boat might stop!

The sound is loud.
The captain is waving.
My boat is moving.
The ship is pulling the boat.

I am sailing.

Resolutions Oink Oink!

I had many resolutions in the past years. One week after New Year, i was still firm with the resolutions.Two weeks after, I got confused whether I need to get hold of them.Third week....I gave up!

I think the point is...I've tried!At least!!! hehehe

Here are some resolutions that I've declared for the year of the Oink!

1. I don't want to die young. I have to eat more fruits,vegetables and fish. Diet baby! Yeah, I can feel the discomfort when I can't move fast.
2. Smile even if problems are many.I don't want to have wrinkles noh.
3. Dedma! I will not mind people who think bad about me.Sorry na lang!Dedma kayo jan!
4. Save.Save.Save.I am not getting any younger.I need to prepare my future and kids' future too. Gone are the shopping days.
5. Devote more time to my kids and my family in Batangas. They are the source of my strength when everything gets wrong already.
6. Know more the students personally. I should not be ashamed to step forward and ask. Who knows, I might be an angel to someone. :)

There folks! I hope I'll be able to get hold of them until the midnight of December 31,2007!