In my entire life, two people told me that I am VULNERABLE. They are my friend Rosetti and a Lieutenant Colonel in the Air Force.
But vulnerable has many meanings. It is susceptible to attack, open to temptation, dangerous, capable of being physically or emotionally wounded or hurt.
That kind of comment caught my attention. What is it that they saw in me that made them said that?
That I am susceptible to attack...open to temptation. I wonder if they saw fragility in me, that I have no defense in my system? That I do not know how to defend myself in times of troubles? That I cannot detect trouble or cannot read lies from people around me? I don't have to prove if a person is lying. I can sense it....from the way the person talks, treats me as a person...from the way a person act in front of me...by the way the person looks at me in the eye...I will know if the person is true to me. No matter how I love that person....I will never allow lies and traitor to rule my life. No matter how painful it is...I will let him go. This means...I know how to be slaved by love...but I am not stupid!
Open to temptation? Did these two persons saw that I am truly looking for someone? That my wings are always spreading and welcoming anyone who would like to come? I think not.
That I am dangerous....? I think and I believe I am a kind person. Looks can be deceiving.
That I am capable of being emotionally hurt....why? Is it because I easily trust people? That I look at their positive character more than the negative ones?
Gees...I dunno. The term given me...vulnerable....I am not comfortable with it. It makes me feel ...I am innocent and so helpless in front of the roaring lions in the dungeon.
