When a person is not in the state of being alone, probably that person will say time management is the name of the game. It's hard when you are in the real action of being alone.
Ize and John are with me. I have to take care of them, support them, give them all the love that I could give. Oh, they are my kids.
This is my usual sched now that I'm a solo flight.
I have to wake up at 4:45 am. I need to prepare everything that the kids will use in school. Mainit na tubig must be ready, breakfast, baon, uniform, etc. Grabe ito. They should be out at 5:40 am if they don't want to be late in school. They go with their Daddy.
After that, I'll give myself 30 minutes to clean the house. I consider it as my early exercise. Everything must be done .....fast or else I will be late for work. When 6:30 am comes, I have to take a bath fast. 10 to 15 minutes only. I have to dress up fast too so I won't be late in the van's 2nd or 3rd trip to Alabang. The service in Alabang leaves at EXACTLY 7:15 am. When it's traffic i usually end up commuting to the work place in a jeepney with some friends who also arrived late in the service waiting area. Too bad.Too costly. Bad trip ito.
I have to be with the studs at 7:50 am until 8:15 am for the morning routine. At this point, my stomach is already in need of food. I eat my bfast in the lounge for 20 minutes, chat with some friends there also. After that, I need to focus on my programs and I need to attend my classes for the day. At 4:30 pm, I go home.
I usually arrive home around 5:30 to 6:00pm. I will rest for a while coz it's really so hard to walk from the kanto to my house. Sometimes I eat merienda, sometimes I don't. It depends on my mood. I exercise for 30 minutes. I do some nice and hard steps (street dance kuno) to make myself okay. Hahahaha aminin. Okay, I want to have a shaper body that's why I dance a lot now.
I cook dinner of course. It's more expensive when I buy food outside. I watch the news after cooking or as I wait for the kids to come home at around 7:00 to 7:30pm. We eat together. I always ask them impt things about school. Martyr na Mommy hehehe. The kids sleep at 9pm.
When the kids are already sleeping, it's already my emote period. I can't help but think many darn things about being alone. Sana my kasama ako nanunuod ng TV or makausap man lang. Sana may nalalambingan ako. I even text or call my siblings when I get so lonely and I almost want to cry. So hard. I close my eyes at 11pm.. sleep when the angel pities me already and send me to rest at 11:30pm.
There......what can you say?
These are the good things of being alone.
1. I manage my life alone. I can do all the things that I like to do. I decide alone. I am responsible for my actions.
2. My earnings are really for me only...ooopps also for the kids. I can shop anytime. I can buy whatever I like...no one will stop me.
3. I learn to do things fast. I value my time. I learn that time management is impt.
4. I learn to save. Nobody will help me when it's time to pay some bills.
5. I learn to love myself. Nobody will take care of me. I have to take care of myself.
6. I learn men stuff. Mag ayos ba ng kanal , gripo, outlet. Kulang na lang umakyat sa bubong eh. Grrrrr
7. I learn to be imaginative.
And... these are the bad things of being alone.
1. I sometimes feel every part of my body aches coz of over fatigue. More work and less rest.
2. I get freak easily.
3. Mapapanisan ka ng laway. I have no choice but to value my saliva. Talk to the walls girl.
4. I long for tender loving care hahahaha.
5. Men think I'm a good target coz I need a little tender loving care. GRRRR I dunno. Getting paranoid huh girl.
6. I mind my own problems. No help whatsoever from other people.
It's 50/50. Sometimes I feel contented of being alone (when I am busy). But at night............ don't ask me anymore....it's too dramatic.
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